I had an hour before a lunch meeting today and I spent it shopping. I bought some sweet new corduroy trousers. They’re soft and cute, just like the pair I had in seventh grade. I have no idea how many pairs of trousers I have now, it’s a lot. I know how many pairs of trousers I had in the seventh grade, one.
In seventh grade I tested into advanced placement classes, most of my peers were the children of doctors and politicians and not on the free lunch program. They weren’t just smart, they had social skills, athletic ability, and adorable wardrobes. I was the awkward, gap-toothed, weird-smelling, wise-cracking, smart-ass who wore the same corduroy pants every day. They respected my academic chops, and clearly looked down on my uncool behavior and simple wardrobe.
I was not going to fit in at all. Instead, I learned how to live in a space where I did not conform, existing without the secret handshake. I stuck with what I was good at, being smart and quick-witted.
Now I am good at fitting in and I am often the best dressed in the room. I am still smart and quick-witted, I’ve added charm and grace to my repertoire, and excel at shining in situations where I don’t know the handshake.
I’m still a smart-ass on occasion; Did I mention that my butt looks amazing in these new cords?